She Smiles To Make Me Happy

I still have like four drafts saved here but I keep on pushing them off the pile or forgetting... Or choosing to forget. Heeeeeh. Here's an outfit post though. I don't even know why I'm posting this at past midnight when I know most of you are already asleep or maybe insomniacs like me.

Elora and Patricia

Patricia, Mark, Elora

Elora and another Patricia who we call Patty

Patricia, Angelica, Elora

ekskyuz zi peys

☑ Gray dress: Forever 21+

☑ Shoes: Rue de CMG (for P799!!!)

☑ Hair and make-up: Buff and Polish (neighborhood parlor)

☑ Clutch: Gift from my parents

Wore this to Hannah's debut last Friday at Manila Hotel. She wanted us girls to wear something that isn't black but sparkly and this is the only dress I could find that I found close to the theme. Forever 21 saved me yet again, lol.

By the way, don't you just love the price of my shoes? I went to Trinoma last Wednesday to buy shoes 'cause the pair I was supposed to use broke and Mr. Quickie said he couldn't fix it. So I went shopping alone and was very happy to see Rue de CMG's sale: P999 for 2 pairs and P799 for one pair. I wanted to buy another one, believe me. But after trying on around six to seven pairs, I gave up and left. They didn't even want to let go of me, haha! I think they're still having the sale right now, 'til May 31 (tomorrow) so go, go, go!!!

I'm not promising but I'm going to try to post at least two or three of the entries I have saved later today (May 30). Or maybe I should promise so I do it... Okay, I promise. Good night!

Was graduation really the end?

So, I graduated last March 2010, and it was the most emotional event ever. I was nervous the entire morning, laughing during the ceremony, and then crying right after the ceremony. I just stared at my best friend, Hannah and it just happened: BOOM *TEAAARS*. I realized all of a sudden that (let me just quote Laguna Beach on this) it was "the end of the beginning". But then, like every other high school graduate, we made our promises to never forget about each other and keep close.

This Christmas season, my college friends have been hanging out with their high school friends - having Christmas parties, having dinners and lunches... And it makes me sad because I realized, how much I've grown apart from my own high school friends. Although I'm very happy for my college friends to be so happy with their old friends, I'm still very sad because I want that, too. It's one of those un-material things that I really want for Christmas. I love my family and I love spending every minute with them. But then I miss my best friends so much. As in, so much! We've been planning dinners, sessions, things like that for several times and none of them have really pushed through.

It makes me wonder: Now that my high school friends and I have new friends, new schedules, new schools... Is it all really over? Have we all moved on and forgotten about each other? I really hope not. Because I don't think I've moved on. I talk about them with my college buddies every day, I think about them, I miss them... That's all I ever do sometimes - I pretend that it's still there and it sort of makes me paranoid sometimes. As if they're mad at me or something, that's why we don't hang-out anymore. Which is silly because there's no reason to be angry since, DUH. We haven't seen each other in months!

But what made me REALLY realize all of this? I was browsing through a friend's photo album on Facebook and I saw her face and I suddenly said to myself, "Oh, man. I really don't know her anymore." And to think, this friend of mine is the girl who I used to hang-out with every single day of my high school life. 'til a few months ago, we still talked and texted everyday. Now it's like, "hey" "hey" "sup" "you don't know me anymore" "..." It makes me really sad and angry at time. *Siiiigh*

Let me reminisce and show you pictures of my high school friends who I am/used to be really, really close with.

Benedictine International School Chorale, July 2008.

Elora, Nina, Hannah, Dani, Trixie, David, Gerard, Anna, Shio.

There were more of us in the chorale but these were the only people who

attended the first practice of that year. This was already our second year as

a chorale and it was the craziest and most memorable time for our FAMILY. :)

Patricia and Elora, September 2008.

Patricia and I started being best friends when she was in

the fifth grade and I was in sixth. Her condominium was my

second home! We've been best friends for five years. :)

Elora and Hannah, July 2008.

Hannah and I used to be enemies in the second grade back

in Miriam College, but when we moved to Bene in sixth grade,

we've been inseparable ever since. But now that we're both in

college, in two different schools, I think we've grown apart.

Betches, (I forgot the month!) 2008.

Elora, Patty, Hannah, Justin.

Started in first year, faded in third year...

The beginning of TAK"S", January 2009.

Hannah, Elora, Dani, Trixie.

My girls! We promised to be best friends forever.

It was the time when I said, "I will never use the word forever

again, except for our friendship." I'm telling you, that word

is a curse!

And last, but not the least, the barkada that I always believed that would last forever. They were there for me all the time and although we had our differences, we always found happiness within the group. We went on crazyyyy trips together, and we even fed the unfortunate kids! Best experience with friends, EVER! I love them. I miss them so much. :)

My Level 9 (Third Year HS) Family, October 2008.

Jan, Adette, Leon, Hannah, Elora, Mark, Patrick.

Question: What and/or who are the things/events/people you miss MOST in your life that you feel you can never get back?

P.S. I'm sorry if the formatting of this blog is well, weird.